Nov 5, 2011

Current mood:frustrated
It’s good to have myspace app with my blackberry. I can now post blogs using my blackberry social subscription plan. Its really cool. And I am now making the most out of my plan and now enjoying what it feels like using the blackberry. I can now post my diary entries here instead of tiring my hand writing or maybe using up memory of my phone just for my entries. It feels good and I’m really glad to have myspace. I should have started myspace the moment I had my blackberry. It would have been more fun! Now, I would just like to share how I felt yesterday. Yesterday was full of regrets. First, I could have been the number one in productivity if I wasn’t absent last Oct 31 and Nov 1. It was such a waste. And to be honest, I can’t accept it. It really hurts me and I felt unappreciated. It was unfair. It should have been computed the other way around. What a waste of effort that was how I really felt. And I felt like resigning that time because I was really aiming for number one and I was getting the numbers yet I wasn’t the number one. I want to do something that I am good at, and with what had happened made me frustrated I thought I was already doing something I’m good at and it so happens I still wasn’t appreciated. Another regretful thing that day was the interview for the applicants of peer trainer. And it pissed me off as well because the anouncement for the aspring trainer was the time I was absent. What the heck, I was again very disappointed because I wanted to be a trainer. It hurts me much. And I felt demotivated to work again. Good thing that day we weren’t doing anything. But I was really furious with everything. I felt like I wanna disappear during the graduation. It felt so unfair. I can’t just forget about it. But that’s life. We need to move on! Moving on! I was lucky to have the schedule that I wanted, Monday to Friday, 2pm to 11pm. Well at least. Because it I won’t get the schedule that I want I will really resign and apply in JP Morgan Chase, my dream company! Aegis People Support! After everything that I did to be a good employee you did this to me, wait after the end of contract and I’m going to apply in Chase. Wait and see… Now looking forward for next week, on November 12, we will have an outing, all expenses paid! Hurray!

Original time and date of post:

1:33 PM Nov 5, 2011
From my myspace blog

Part II
9:13 PM

Current mood:uncomfortable
Why is it I can’t just accept that life is like this? I am already hurting people because being uncontented. I may be unlucky at some points but in terms of important things, I was really lucky, like having a baby like my daughter. My dream baby. Tell me to be contented and accept facts. And just enjoy life that was destined for me. I love my family and I don’t wanna hurt any of them, intentionally. God, I know you are there, please help me. Loving, Your Daughter